my first love letter

Something triggered an old memory today. I just remembered the first time I became aware of boys as “boys”, in other words my very first crush. I was 8 years old and he was 13. I remember he was light in complexion, very good looking (at least that’s what I thought) and he was an athlete. I remember my heart racing fast, palms sweating and getting all flustered every time he was close by. And I never had the guts to look him straight in the face. And the worst part is, he liked me too! I say the worst because what then happened was he wrote me a letter. I remember reading the first few lines and then throwing it away. My best friend couldn’t as well pass up a really juicy story took it and read it. I refused to let her read it out loud, I don’t even know whether I was angry with him or if I was too embarrassed to receive a letter from a boy. Now 20 years letter I wonder if I shouldn’t have read and memorized my very first love letter.